14-Nov-24
It's been a month since my last post, and it's not because of my procrastination. I have been writing a piece, but it's meant for someone else. I will share it here, hopefully, if everything goes according to plan.
It's 05:19 currently, and I was feeling uneasy as usual, so I opened up Google Docs and started writing about how I normally feel when the night sets in. My relationship with the night is very complicated; I hate it, but I also want it to stay for some reason. There's just something about it that calms me and clears my head of suppressed thoughts. Anyway, enjoy the poem, and let me know how you feel when it gets dark and the sky is filled with scattered stars.
Phir aagai hai woh bin bulai raat
Mere akelepan ka ahsaas aur andhere ke saath
Phir se jaagegi tamanna kisi se baat karne ki
Phir se meri aankhein zid karengi kisi pe marne ki
Phir se main dusron ki guftugoo sunke jalunga
Phir se main tanha kyon hoon yeh khud se kahunga
Phir se main namumkin khwaab dekhne ki karunga bhool
Phir se main nakaam koshish karunga khud ko rakhne ki mashgool
Phir se main chhat pe jaake akela tehlunga
Phir se main yeh dard chup chaap sehlunga
Phir se main jhooti kahaniyan parhke apna dil behlaunga
Phir se main pyaar main haara hua kehlaunga
Phir se main karunga kisi ke milne ki duaien
Phir se mazak uraiengi mera guzarti hawaien
Phir bhi main karunga is raat ka phir se intezaar
Kyonki iski ab aadat hochuki hai mujhe chaahe main karlun jitna inkaar
beautiful❤️